Sunday, January 29, 2012
So I have been in and out of working out. I seriously was into Insanity but P90x isn't what I love. Then I wanted to try Lean version of p90x and I did a few days worth. To add to the whole entire mess I got an ear infection that caused mass damage to my ear, neck, jaw, and head. Was told to bed rest for several days. I'm planning a challenge group on Feb. 1st to start P90x and Insanity hybrid. It seems I have interest then I get ditched. I am trying hard to be the best coach I can be and help people reach their goals. I have only 103 lbs left to lose to my original goal of 175. That is amazing to me. However, when I signed on as a Beachbody coach...I honestly thought people would really be interested and I would have a ton of responses. I have interest, I follow through, then nothin. I feel like a failure already. I feel if I can't share what I am doing what business do I have being a coach. Obviously I'm doing something wrong. I have changed a lot this year. Actually since highschool. I used to be a size 7. Big breasts but I was small. Granted I had a sickness...I was bulimic. I had problems. Then after school it has all downhill in weight. I can't believe I let myself get so bad. I feel like a fat ass. Then I remember how much weight I have lost in 4 months. It's amazing. Shakeology and Insanity helped me. Now I have more to go...I just need to get going again. My friends are supposed to do this challenge with me. But that entails just the workout. I have had several people interested in Shakeology but then they like blow me off. I don't get it. What am I doing this for? I need to get more weight off, more toned, and even healthier. Thank God for my coach's team on Facebook. I have met some great peeps. I love them like my own family. I'm trying to set my own group for Facebook and this Challenge but nobody posts in it but me. I have asked questions I have asked for committments and everyone is just in this reading my posts and no responses. I am being more positive now. I have to be. For myself. For my happiness. For my journey. Because if I can't this was all for nothing and I really failed. So the trek of my journey continues...are you still along for the ride?
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